This one's for you, kid

MY SISTER IS BETTER THAN YOURS!!! Love you Robin!!

I GOT PUNKED!!!

So my morning begins after two dreams that felt so real.

Dream #1: My aunt was trying to kill me. This is my father's sister who has stated out loud that she doesn't like me and I could care less because she doesn't tickle my fancy either. But she kidnapped me and had full intent to kill me. I somehow ran into someone I know from UCLA and had him call my sister and tell her that I had been kidnapped and to call the police. *end of dream*

Dream #2: There was a horrible accident on Crenshaw and Imperial where a car just burst into flames and a nearby car caught on fire as well. *end of dream*

By now I'm wide awake watching tv and decided to curl my hair for church. There was some huge event taking place so I knew I had to be up and out of my apartment on time. So I get ready for church and head to my mom's. She needed me to go to a store and pick up a large order of rotisserie chicken. *for the sake of the story I will keep the store nameless* When I get there, the first person I see in the deli section is the stripper who accosted me. And for some reason it makes me hella giddy and I can't stop laughing and smiling to myself. So the guy I spoke to had me doing run around. The chicken wasn't finished when it was supposed to be. Then it wouldn't fit in the cart so I had to get the pulley thing which were all out. So after 25 minutes of waiting and back and forths...I get to the check out line. Right as the girl is ringing me up, there is a small electrical fire and the entire building needed to be evacuated...but best believe I got my chicken and got the hell up outta there.

So I finally get to church that I'm already 35 minutes late for and my aunt asks me to help her set up for the event taking place afterward. Needless to say...I missed church. Once the event got started, the first person I see is my godbrother hanging with my aunt's son {refer to dream #1}. In my mind...he probably came with someone else so I thought nothing of it. But as I set there with my little cousin, Cheta, I see my aunt {refer to dream #1}.

GOD STRAIGHT PUNKED ME TODAY AND GOT ONE HELLUVA LAUGH ON MY ACCOUNT...LMAO!!! Oh well...que sera sera!

Happy Face

I woke up this morning,
The sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able,
I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

Woke up and realized
This world's not
So bad after all
Looked at it through
A child's eyes, and
I saw these beautiful
Things that you
Never think about
Like the ocean, moonlight,
Stars and clouds
It's amazing how
We don't appreciate
Our blessings
There's plenty of people
Who don't like me
But since there are more
Who love me and
I love myself
Sometimes, it gets tough,
It gets tough
But I can't give up,
Can't give up
Just take a deep breath,
Close my eyes
Feel the love and
Give a smile

I woke up this morning,
The sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able,
I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

I woke up this morning,
The sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able,
I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

It's me,
I just wanna be happy
Uh, just be happy, uh,
Just be happy
Today is the day
I am willing to say
I will put all the
Past behind me,
No more enemies
Ready 'cause
(Ready 'cause)
I'm living in this world
(Lving in this world)
I wanna make a change
(Wnna make a change)
Gonna make a change
(Gnna make a change)
Put on my happy face

I woke up this morning,
Te sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able,
I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

I woke up this morning,
The sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able,
I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

Everything's gonna be all right,
Everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be all right,
Everything's gonna be okay
Gonna be all right,
Everything's gonna be all right
Everything's gonna be all right,
Everything's gonna be okay
Gonna be all right,
Everything's gonna be all right
Everything's gonna be all right,
Everything's gonna be okay
Gonna be all right,
Everything's gonna be all right
Everything's gonna be all right,
Everything's gonna be okay

I woke up this morning,
The sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able,
I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

I woke up this morning,
The sunshine was shining
I put on my happy face
I'm living, I'm able,
I'm breathing, I'm grateful
To put on my happy face

I woke up this morning
With a happy face
I'm flying, I'm flying,
I'm flying, I'm flying
I'm flying, I'm flying,
I'm flying, I'm flying
I'm flying, I'm flying,
I'm flying, I'm flying
Flying, flying

Spiraling Thoughts

Lately I can't seem to shake this feeling that some people around me aren't keepin it 100 with me. Sometimes I tend to over think and I'm okay with that. Because usually I know when to let go but for some reason I can't seem to shake this feeling. I feel like my mind is spiraling out of control and I don't even know where to begin to gain some sense of sanity or at least a level of comfort that will have me in a position to move on to the next chapter in my life.

-Signed
Spiraling out of control



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FRUSTRATION

I haven't been here in a while. So much has happened and I don't have time to write about it all. The real reason I decided to get out of bed on a Saturday before 10 is to blog about my recent frustrations with two people I'm constantly warned about.

First, a "friend" was out of town the entire summer. The day she was supposed to come back, we had a night out planned for her because we missed her. Only to find out that she wanted to spend the weekend with her aunt and her cousins. Even though she knew we had something planned, I didn't mind. I'd pick a weekend with family too. The only problem I had was that she didn't have the courtesy to tell us that she had changed her mind about going out. Thank goodness I didn't cook. Anyway, that was damn near two weeks ago and I have yet to hear from her. Now, I'm more than slightly offended. Do what you need to do, but be considerate of others that planned something for you and let them know what's going on. So after not hearing from her for a couple of days, I began to wonder if she was okay. In my former life, I swear I was a detective. So I signed on with an alternate screen name only to find out that my screen name had been blocked because there she was online. I like to think I give people the benefit of the doubt, but how many times before frustration lies in and you say fuck em? So here I am...I lowkey don't care. I wish her the best.

Second; Recently, I met this guy that for some reason has me intrigued. Usually when this happens, I don't tell people. I hate having people in my personal life because they would either use it against you, or go after the person whom you're interested in. (unless its someone who just knows better...this is why I will forever love my besties.) So I went out yesterday with this second "friend" and I invited the guy. And there she goes...off at the mouth. I can respect people's free nature. Those who don't really give a damn about what others think. But here's where I draw the line: everyone does not need to know about your sex life. The more you talk about it, the more "loose" you look. And to pass it off as "just being honest/real" doesn't cut it. Especially with the guy that your so-called friend is in to. Hence my away message for the previous night "that's why you don't tell bitches shit". And people wonder why its hard for me to trust others. When I trust people with a piece of information, it tends to backfire. Now I gotta do the Heisman and keep her at arm's length. TOO many people have warned me about her. In my mind, I figured that's just how she is. But damn...can we try a little bit of couth? So I was definitely pissed last night. Hence my recent frustrations.