I don't like it unless its brand new...

So as of lately...I've been hitting up the poetry spot at the Starbucks in the Ladera Center. I've been moved to complete a piece and get up and perform it. But if you didn't know...let me tell you...I HAVE STAGE FRIGHT. Yes ladies and gentlemen...I have performance anxiety. Throughout my blog, you will find various poems that I have done. And every Wednesday that I attend the poetry reading...something in me wants to get up and perform one of my pieces, yet another part of me gets so anxious that I freeze up and decide to bypass the opportunity to share a piece of myself with others.

So I question...what's the problem? Is that I'm afraid to just get up and speak or is it that I'm afraid to share a part of myself with people I don't even know? Or is it a combination of both? Only God knows and only time will tell...

WAIT

My mama always told me
Good things come to those who wait
So why don't we...
Wait
Wait for you to learn more than the curves on my body
Wait for me to learn more than your current circumstance
Wait for a real love to develop and flourish
I want to be your good thing
The reason you wake up smiling
The one you think of when you feel down
The one you call because I can bring you back up
Not quite like Beyonce
I don't need to upgrade you
I want to compliment you
For us to upgrade each other
For us to share ideas on how to become better people
But how can we have this
If you don't
Wait?