Transition

I recently went on an interview and ran into one of the worldly people I know. We talked about what I was up to and he said something to me that registered and summed up the last year of my life.

Since I've graduated, I felt like I've been on this search, yet didn't know what I was looking for. The person I ran into told me that I am in transition from youth to adulthood. I never realized that I was growing and transitioning until he said it to me. I have been going through things that adults deal with on a regular basis. I've been wondering why everything was against me. Only to understand that the only thing in my way was my perspective on what was taking place was to juvenile to deal with these adult matters.

For example, I haven't really worked in over a year. Yeah, I had a part time job for three months. but it wasn't enough to get by on. I was angry that I had a bachelor's degree and couldn't find a job worthwhile. I loved the work that I did, mainly because I enjoyed working with the kids. However, the work that was demanded of me was far to great for the pay that I was receiving.

Adult situation. I hear of people in these type of situations all the time. They somehow make it work for them until something better passes along. Then I realized we can't all start out at the top. We sometimes need to suffer and lose so that we can realize our worth and appreciate the things that we have. I am currently in a place where sometimes I feel like I've hit rock bottom. No money, no gas, can't do the things that I want, had to move back home with my mom, etc. For most people this is rock bottom. But my faith in God and the belief that no condition is permanent, therefore change will come has kept me afloat and kept me looking for a means to an end. And then to acknowledge my blessings. The fact that I woke up this morning is proof that another day means another opportunity to change my circumstance. The fact that my mom allowed me to move back home and not pay a thing. As a matter of fact my mom has been my rock. Paying for the things that I need, ie. car insurance and cell phone bill. The fact that I have people in my life you have been encouraging and upbeat, even when I haven't been.

I say all of this to those of you who are in the same, better, or worse position. Remember, no condition is permanent. You may be up today and at the bottom tomorrow, or vice versa. But life is a constant transition so appreciate the things you do have, change the things you don't, and never waver in your faith.